Day 87 - 9/17/21 - FRI
- mainemoviepirate
- 2 days ago
- 2 min read
Journal Entry:
Night of Hell, here at Camp Devens. Sore throat, cough, runny nose, I believe it's seasonal allergies. Well, I hope. The sciatic nerve, which hits once in a while, for an hour or two. This bad boy decided to stay all night.
Eventually, about 5, I took a shower, which was a slight reprieve. Then came back and faded as the morning arrived. Still there slightly. I just found out the commissary has allergy meds, dammit.
Not much energy, won't accomplish much today. Skipped working lunch, but did go in for 3/4 shifts. Dragged ass thru it.
SUPPER: CK Lo Mein, Carrots, ate most of it, bread in reserve.
Still wiped right out, no writing today or anything. No focus. Received a letter back from Steve. I'm on my own with debarment, which is fine. Got to write back, next week and get the sentencing transcripts and the jury instructions, if I can.
3 days to 90 days, let's ratchet this thing up!
Notes for Day 87 (Four Years Later)
Looking back, the "Night of Hell" wasn't just about the physical pain of a sciatic nerve flare-up; it was the psychological weight of realization. Getting that letter from Steve and writing, "I'm on my own with debarment," was a major wake-up call. At the time, I told myself it was "fine," but in reality, this was the moment the veil started to drop.
This was the beginning of the realization that Steve did not—and perhaps never did—have my best interests at the forefront of his representation. A lawyer's job shouldn't end when the prison gates close, especially when the government is pursuing administrative punishments like debarment that essentially extend the impact of the sentence.
I was physically wiped out and sick, yet I was the one planning to track down sentencing transcripts and jury instructions. I was doing the work a dedicated legal team should have been doing years prior. This entry marks the point where I stopped being a "client" and started becoming my own lead investigator—not by choice, but because the system (and my own counsel) had left me with no other option.
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